Everyone daydreams about winning an Academy Award, and you can tell a lot about a person from the particular daydream he or she has.
Me? I picture myself winning the award for Best Adapted Screenplay.
It feels too arrogant to imagine winning Best Actor or Best Picture. Best Adapted Screenplay seems like a reasonable level of success to shoot for, even in fantasy. And I prefer being seen as a writer more than an actor. It seems smarter. I even prefer the idea of winning "adapted" instead of original since it feels more humble to serve an existing work. Mind you, I often confuse "humble" with "unconfident."
I'm suspicious of people who can only imagine themselves winning one of the big awards Actor, Actress, Director, Picture but I also admire their audaciousness. Like people who get really into wearing fedoras: it's not for me, but I respect how unapologetically they demand attention.
Why practice being a winner? Life gives us second place or worse far more often. We want to be a nation of Michael Jordans but we are more like to be the chubby guy in Teen Wolf. And with the right mindset there is honor there.
Like I focus more on how I'd look losing an award rather than winning. The frozen smile I'd keep on my face while someone else's name was announced would be my quiet badge of honor. I would not look in the camera and playfully be angry; that would be making it about me. I'd respectfully nod and smile, fully accepting my loss like a samurai venturing off into the wilderness.